Meaning in the Universe

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I love this quote by Brian Cox,

There’s only one interesting question in philosophy. The interesting question is, what does it mean to live a finite, fragile life in an infinite, eternal universe? I think the answer is, paradoxically, whilst we are definitely physically insignificant, I’ve just said that the Earth is one planet, around one star, amongst 400 billion stars, in one galaxy amongst two trillion galaxies, in a small patch of the universe, right?

So we’re definitely small, you can’t argue with that, we’re just specks of dust. But if you think about what we are, we’re just collections of atoms. Our bodies were made in stars, right? So it’s all cooked over billions of years. And we’re in this pattern that can think, you have a means by which the universe understands and explores itself, which is us. And that sounds unlikely when you put it like that, that you can have a few things that were cooked in the hearts of stars, you stick them together in a pattern and suddenly it has some ideas and starts writing music.

There aren’t any other worlds where this happened, certainly in our galaxy. So it could be that this planet, notwithstanding its physical insignificance, is the only place where anything thinks.

Think about it… think about consciousness and thinking… without thought the entire universe has no meaning. And so, while we live on an insignificant planet, in an insignificant solar system, in an insignificant galaxy, in an insignificant part of the universe… we might also be the only significant part of all existence, or at the very least, in our own, known part of the universe.

We are simultaneously insignificant and potentially the most significant thing in the universe. Without consciousness there is no meaning to the universe, and while there might be a lot of evidence of life beyond our solar system, there is no guarantee the these other life forms have achieved the level of consciousness of humans.

This makes me question my own assumptions about consciousness and free will. I’ve previously said in my post, ‘Consciousness and Free Will’:

1. I don’t think consciousness is fundamental.
And;
2. Consciousness comes from an excess of processing time.

But maybe my first premise doesn’t need to be true for my second one to be true. Maybe consciousness is fundamental, but we need excess processing time in order to tap into it?

Maybe consciousness is essential to the existence of the universe, because without it, why should the universe even exist? If that question doesn’t create at least a little existential angst, I’m not sure what would?

Are we beings that became conscious so that we can add meaning to the entire universe, or is the universe somehow dependent on consciousness and we are simply living beings capable of tapping into this on some fuzzy frequency? A fuzzy frequency which also clouds our minds with a desire to seek beliefs that make sense of a consciousness far too great for us to truly understand?  Be it religion or physics, we are meaning seekers, and we might just be the most important meaning seekers in the entire universe.

 

The corner staircase

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I’ve always had this vision of building my own house. I have no experience with architecture, I struggle to build IKEA furniture, and lack basic handyman skills… but I’ve always wanted to design my own dream home. One feature I envision is a staircase in an all-glass corner of the house. It’s kind of a double spiral staircase, and it is designed such that both at the top and the bottom, you walk towards the corner to go both up and down the stairs, and they turn at the halfway point. At the top, you just walk towards the corner and then have a choice of turning either to the left or right. Essentially, you go down about 5 or six steps to a landing where the spiral splits both ways, going away from the corner and along the side walls.

At the bottom of the steps, the first 2 steps create a half circle or crescent, going completely across the corner. Then the stairs spiral left or right with a railing that is only about 6 inches above and behind the second step at the center, and then spirals up with the steps to railing hight by the 4th or 5th step. This creates an empty space on the inside of the spiral, behind the first 2 steps. In this space, underneath the stairs that are coming  down from the floor above, there is a waterfall and then a fish pond in the void behind the spirals.

One more feature is that the wall behind the waterfall has 2 possible positions, one is just less than 90º and the other is just a bit more than 90º. This allows the waterfall to either be a true falls, with water splashing as it lands in the pond, or it can be subtle with water silently sliding down the wall into the pond. So, it’s a wonderful, natural background noise when you want it, but also a subtle trickle when you’d like quiet.

I’ve tried drawing it, but can’t seem to get it right. The AI image I created here is a start of the idea, although not completely what I envision. I’ve tried many times to tweak this image, or use other tools, but I lack the descriptive skills to really get what I want. Still, this would be one feature I’d love to have if I was ever given the chance to design my own house.

Are you sure?

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Today is the day that I officially announce to my district that I’m retiring. The deadline is the end of the month, but I want to do it today so that I don’t have to think about it on my March break, which starts tomorrow. So, a couple months ago when the process was sent to us as a reminder, I threw the instructions into a calendar reminder for today. I have obviously never done this before, but I’m told that as part of the process you are asked, ‘Are you sure?’ …not once, but twice.

This is neither a light nor a small decision, but it’s one I’ve made with clarity of mind. This June, when I see my students off for the last time, it will indeed be for the last time. I am moving on. I am confident that this is the right decision for me.

‘Are you sure?’ Yes.

‘Are you sure?’ Yes.

That one song

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I’ve realized than when I workout certain tasks require a specific song. I get ready and think, “I need my music for this!” Not just any music, that one song that gets me going. A 10 minute stretch starts with Enya’s ‘My! My! Time Flies’… twice. If I’m going to do a plank, well then it’s Eminem’s ‘Lose Yourself’.

Time to push my max weight or go for a personal best? I’ve gotta listen to ‘Higher Baby’ by Sean Brown. What about when I’m about to start a set I’m not a fan of doing? Well that’s easy, I just put on ‘Remember the Name’ by Fort Minor. And those time I need to cool down, or slooow down a set and work on technique? Then nothing sets the tone quite like ’He Got Game’ by Public Enemy.

What’s a workout song you can’t live without?

And what other activities do you find require a song?

Must do vs want to do

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I can tell it’s close to March break because I feel like a holiday is due. The biggest signal in my brain for this is that I can feel the shift in my thoughts move from, ‘What do I want to get done?’ Move more to, ‘What do I need to get done?’

At this point I’m wanting to efficiently and effectively get through the ‘must do’s’, checking off the tasks and responsibilities essential to do a good job. But those other things I really want to do, the special projects I created for myself, the extra tasks I envisioned getting out of the way before the break… these things are no longer feeling like priorities. They’ve been put on hold until after the break.

I’ve written a lot about the difference between leadership and management over the years, and the challenges of a principal’s role to do management well enough that there is time for true leadership. I can often express the importance of the role being about the leadership beyond the management, getting the things you want to do to lead done, and not just getting lost in the things that need to get done to run an organization.

What I haven’t admitted yet is that sometimes the energy level just isn’t there… like a few days before a two week holiday. Which also happens to be a time when you aren’t the only one looking forward to the break. And at these times the most important thing is to get what needs to be done off of your plate.

There are still ways to lead, to show gratitude and appreciation for others, and to be present with others… but at these times it’s perfectly ok to put the ‘want to do’ projects and plans on hold. What you can’t do is disconnect from the important things that still need to get done.

Come back from the holidays refreshed and ready to take on the world. But if you drop the ball on the ‘must do’s’ before the break, the catch upon return will keep you farther still from the ‘want to do’s’ you love about your job.

So, don’t feel guilty about putting those special projects on hold, but also don’t forget about all the things that you can do now to reduce the friction and workload, and prime yourself for the stuff you know you want to do when you return after the break. Manage all the tasks you can, focus on being productive, and you’ll pave the way for more inspired work when you return.

Upside down

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I’m currently lying on an inversion table. I have no idea if this will help with my sciatica pain, but while I wait for a pain clinic appointment I’m willing to try anything. The meds given to me don’t seem to help, and I’ve stopped taking them. I do my physio exercises religiously, and still I’m uncomfortable any time that I stand for more than a few minutes.

So upside down I go for a few minutes at a time. I’ll try to do this a couple time in the morning and in the evening over the next week, and hopefully by the March break I’ll feel a little relief. It’s so challenging to live moving from seated position to seated position. Up until now, I’ve spent most of my life avoiding sitting and now it’s my relief.

The good news is that the pain level is tolerable as long as I’m not put in a position where I need to stand for a long time. The bad news is that I’ve been dealing with this since December, and I’m not sure if the end is in sight yet?

So, upside down I go again.

AI Agents and Trust

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I read this in the Superhuman Newsletter today,

“Agents need authorization, not
just authentication…

The winners in enterprise AI won’t have the most features. They’ll be the ones enterprises can safely trust.”

I am still very far away from letting any kind of AI agent access my email. I don’t care how efficient the tool might make me; don’t care if it can prioritize and reduce my attention on unimportant information. The reality is that my email is the gateway to every login credential and password to every online identity I have… and it’s not only the agent itself I fear, it’s the vulnerabilities that they open me up to if a bad actor can trick the agent into giving them access.

Maybe I’m just paranoid, but I don’t think there are enough kinks worked out in the area of privacy and security. Oh, and to ad an important PSA: Make sure your email password is different than all other passwords you use online. I’d rather be paranoid than overconfident when it comes to online safety and security.

The worst it will be from now on

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I used Google’s Notebook LM in September 2024 and I was impressed with the podcast it created, sharing a summary of my blog. A month later I had it do the same for a video I created with Joe Truss. This is a novel theory, not a general knowledge concept and yet the AI grasped the majority of the concepts and did a very good summary.

Today I went back to Notebook LM because I heard it can now do video summaries. Again, I was impressed. While the accompanying visuals were not ideal, (we discuss complex geometry), the audio summary was excellent and it was valuable to see what takeaways were summarized and how the ideas were structured.

I then explained some of the geometric issues and the AI produced a pdf with the correct geometry. Joe and I then tried creating a slide deck, another new feature. The resulting text was excellent again, but some of the images were not quite accurate, yet we could see the possibilities in correcting the details and providing other sources to make it give us impressive results.

Reflecting on these improvements it occurred to me just how good this tool is now, and yet this is the worst version it will ever be. Artificial Intelligence and robotics are both advancing exponentially in capabilities. It’s exciting to think that what we are capable of using these tools for now will be considered simplistic if not archaic in just a few years.

Today I saw a video about a Chinese company that is selling a three and a half foot tall humanoid robot for the price of a new iPhone. It is not a simplistic toy, it is extremely agile and comes with a fully programmable operating system, meaning it is completely trainable for skills it doesn’t come with. That same company is expecting to reach 1,000 units produced a month by the end of this year.

We are in an era where advances happen daily, and what we marvel at today will be commonplace tomorrow. Every day the advances get a little better and so we are perpetually living with the worst technology we’ll ever know.

Enshitification

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I asked Copilot to search my blog for, “posts where technology improves while systems (work, economy, institutions, structures) get worse.”

It shared the following summary:

 

The reason I asked for this is because I wanted to look back on posts that reminded me of this skit out of Norway. It is, as the Threads post suggests, “utterly brilliant”!

You can find the video and more information on the website at the end of the video.

We aren’t imagining this, things are getting intentionally worse. On social media we are not the customer, we are the product sold to advertisers. And even when we are the customer, we don’t buy anything outright anymore, no, we get locked into subscriptions.

Copilot didn’t find the one post I was looking for, but I found it to share here:

Sometime technology s(UX)

I’ll end here with a couple paragraphs from that post, no need to try writing something I already said,

“I want to use my credit card at a gas station, not only must I put in my pin, I need to say how much I want to spend as a maximum. Every instant teller I go to asks me what language I want to work in… how hard would it be for the machine to know my preference after asking once? And as for autocorrect… it’s getting worse, not better.

I love my tech, but it seems to me that technology is all about adding features, and not about user experience (UX). The user is forgotten as new bells and whistles are added. Or things are so locked down that I need Face ID, a confirmation text, and coming soon, a DNA scan. Between new features and new security measures, there seems little time spent thinking about what the experience is for the end user.”

Dystopian hiring

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We aren’t that far away from a rather dystopian world where so much of our lives are monitored and recorded that we will be an open book.

Imagine going for a job interview and before you arrive a digital, AI private detective has tracked every possible video, image, and written document that you’ve shared publicly, and given you a score based on company criteria that you are not privy to. And maybe that tracking will go beyond publicly shared data and reveal even more about you, like medical information scraped from a data breach you know nothing about.

Imagine going into that interviews where you are submitted to a ‘voluntary’ brain scan as part of the interview… that you agree to knowing full well that you won’t get the job if you don’t volunteer.

That scan will check to see if you are being honest during the interview, and it will also do things like measure the size of your anterior medsingulate cortex, which will let the company know if you are someone who does or does not challenge themselves. The company hiring you will know more about you than your friends and family do.

And for a real dystopian plot twist: it’s an android interviewing you for a mundane job that androids consider too menial to do! Even without this twist, I wonder what the job market will look like in 20 years? What role will humans play in the overall work force? What jobs are uniquely human, and what jobs can a brilliant if not super intelligent AI do?

I’m not sure how much the job market will truly change in just 20 years, but at the rate of advancement that I’m seeing in robotics and artificial intelligence, I really think a major disruption in what we call work is coming. The disruption will be uneven at first, taking more jobs in different sectors than in others, but sooner than we would want to envision, the disruption is coming in almost every sector. What will that really mean for humans and the things we define as work?