Author Archives: David Truss

Are you sure?

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Today is the day that I officially announce to my district that I’m retiring. The deadline is the end of the month, but I want to do it today so that I don’t have to think about it on my March break, which starts tomorrow. So, a couple months ago when the process was sent to us as a reminder, I threw the instructions into a calendar reminder for today. I have obviously never done this before, but I’m told that as part of the process you are asked, ‘Are you sure?’ …not once, but twice.

This is neither a light nor a small decision, but it’s one I’ve made with clarity of mind. This June, when I see my students off for the last time, it will indeed be for the last time. I am moving on. I am confident that this is the right decision for me.

‘Are you sure?’ Yes.

‘Are you sure?’ Yes.

That one song

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I’ve realized than when I workout certain tasks require a specific song. I get ready and think, “I need my music for this!” Not just any music, that one song that gets me going. A 10 minute stretch starts with Enya’s ‘My! My! Time Flies’… twice. If I’m going to do a plank, well then it’s Eminem’s ‘Lose Yourself’.

Time to push my max weight or go for a personal best? I’ve gotta listen to ‘Higher Baby’ by Sean Brown. What about when I’m about to start a set I’m not a fan of doing? Well that’s easy, I just put on ‘Remember the Name’ by Fort Minor. And those time I need to cool down, or slooow down a set and work on technique? Then nothing sets the tone quite like ’He Got Game’ by Public Enemy.

What’s a workout song you can’t live without?

And what other activities do you find require a song?

Must do vs want to do

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I can tell it’s close to March break because I feel like a holiday is due. The biggest signal in my brain for this is that I can feel the shift in my thoughts move from, ‘What do I want to get done?’ Move more to, ‘What do I need to get done?’

At this point I’m wanting to efficiently and effectively get through the ‘must do’s’, checking off the tasks and responsibilities essential to do a good job. But those other things I really want to do, the special projects I created for myself, the extra tasks I envisioned getting out of the way before the break… these things are no longer feeling like priorities. They’ve been put on hold until after the break.

I’ve written a lot about the difference between leadership and management over the years, and the challenges of a principal’s role to do management well enough that there is time for true leadership. I can often express the importance of the role being about the leadership beyond the management, getting the things you want to do to lead done, and not just getting lost in the things that need to get done to run an organization.

What I haven’t admitted yet is that sometimes the energy level just isn’t there… like a few days before a two week holiday. Which also happens to be a time when you aren’t the only one looking forward to the break. And at these times the most important thing is to get what needs to be done off of your plate.

There are still ways to lead, to show gratitude and appreciation for others, and to be present with others… but at these times it’s perfectly ok to put the ‘want to do’ projects and plans on hold. What you can’t do is disconnect from the important things that still need to get done.

Come back from the holidays refreshed and ready to take on the world. But if you drop the ball on the ‘must do’s’ before the break, the catch upon return will keep you farther still from the ‘want to do’s’ you love about your job.

So, don’t feel guilty about putting those special projects on hold, but also don’t forget about all the things that you can do now to reduce the friction and workload, and prime yourself for the stuff you know you want to do when you return after the break. Manage all the tasks you can, focus on being productive, and you’ll pave the way for more inspired work when you return.

Upside down

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I’m currently lying on an inversion table. I have no idea if this will help with my sciatica pain, but while I wait for a pain clinic appointment I’m willing to try anything. The meds given to me don’t seem to help, and I’ve stopped taking them. I do my physio exercises religiously, and still I’m uncomfortable any time that I stand for more than a few minutes.

So upside down I go for a few minutes at a time. I’ll try to do this a couple time in the morning and in the evening over the next week, and hopefully by the March break I’ll feel a little relief. It’s so challenging to live moving from seated position to seated position. Up until now, I’ve spent most of my life avoiding sitting and now it’s my relief.

The good news is that the pain level is tolerable as long as I’m not put in a position where I need to stand for a long time. The bad news is that I’ve been dealing with this since December, and I’m not sure if the end is in sight yet?

So, upside down I go again.

AI Agents and Trust

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I read this in the Superhuman Newsletter today,

“Agents need authorization, not
just authentication…

The winners in enterprise AI won’t have the most features. They’ll be the ones enterprises can safely trust.”

I am still very far away from letting any kind of AI agent access my email. I don’t care how efficient the tool might make me; don’t care if it can prioritize and reduce my attention on unimportant information. The reality is that my email is the gateway to every login credential and password to every online identity I have… and it’s not only the agent itself I fear, it’s the vulnerabilities that they open me up to if a bad actor can trick the agent into giving them access.

Maybe I’m just paranoid, but I don’t think there are enough kinks worked out in the area of privacy and security. Oh, and to ad an important PSA: Make sure your email password is different than all other passwords you use online. I’d rather be paranoid than overconfident when it comes to online safety and security.

The worst it will be from now on

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I used Google’s Notebook LM in September 2024 and I was impressed with the podcast it created, sharing a summary of my blog. A month later I had it do the same for a video I created with Joe Truss. This is a novel theory, not a general knowledge concept and yet the AI grasped the majority of the concepts and did a very good summary.

Today I went back to Notebook LM because I heard it can now do video summaries. Again, I was impressed. While the accompanying visuals were not ideal, (we discuss complex geometry), the audio summary was excellent and it was valuable to see what takeaways were summarized and how the ideas were structured.

I then explained some of the geometric issues and the AI produced a pdf with the correct geometry. Joe and I then tried creating a slide deck, another new feature. The resulting text was excellent again, but some of the images were not quite accurate, yet we could see the possibilities in correcting the details and providing other sources to make it give us impressive results.

Reflecting on these improvements it occurred to me just how good this tool is now, and yet this is the worst version it will ever be. Artificial Intelligence and robotics are both advancing exponentially in capabilities. It’s exciting to think that what we are capable of using these tools for now will be considered simplistic if not archaic in just a few years.

Today I saw a video about a Chinese company that is selling a three and a half foot tall humanoid robot for the price of a new iPhone. It is not a simplistic toy, it is extremely agile and comes with a fully programmable operating system, meaning it is completely trainable for skills it doesn’t come with. That same company is expecting to reach 1,000 units produced a month by the end of this year.

We are in an era where advances happen daily, and what we marvel at today will be commonplace tomorrow. Every day the advances get a little better and so we are perpetually living with the worst technology we’ll ever know.

Enshitification

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I asked Copilot to search my blog for, “posts where technology improves while systems (work, economy, institutions, structures) get worse.”

It shared the following summary:

 

The reason I asked for this is because I wanted to look back on posts that reminded me of this skit out of Norway. It is, as the Threads post suggests, “utterly brilliant”!

You can find the video and more information on the website at the end of the video.

We aren’t imagining this, things are getting intentionally worse. On social media we are not the customer, we are the product sold to advertisers. And even when we are the customer, we don’t buy anything outright anymore, no, we get locked into subscriptions.

Copilot didn’t find the one post I was looking for, but I found it to share here:

Sometime technology s(UX)

I’ll end here with a couple paragraphs from that post, no need to try writing something I already said,

“I want to use my credit card at a gas station, not only must I put in my pin, I need to say how much I want to spend as a maximum. Every instant teller I go to asks me what language I want to work in… how hard would it be for the machine to know my preference after asking once? And as for autocorrect… it’s getting worse, not better.

I love my tech, but it seems to me that technology is all about adding features, and not about user experience (UX). The user is forgotten as new bells and whistles are added. Or things are so locked down that I need Face ID, a confirmation text, and coming soon, a DNA scan. Between new features and new security measures, there seems little time spent thinking about what the experience is for the end user.”

Dystopian hiring

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We aren’t that far away from a rather dystopian world where so much of our lives are monitored and recorded that we will be an open book.

Imagine going for a job interview and before you arrive a digital, AI private detective has tracked every possible video, image, and written document that you’ve shared publicly, and given you a score based on company criteria that you are not privy to. And maybe that tracking will go beyond publicly shared data and reveal even more about you, like medical information scraped from a data breach you know nothing about.

Imagine going into that interviews where you are submitted to a ‘voluntary’ brain scan as part of the interview… that you agree to knowing full well that you won’t get the job if you don’t volunteer.

That scan will check to see if you are being honest during the interview, and it will also do things like measure the size of your anterior medsingulate cortex, which will let the company know if you are someone who does or does not challenge themselves. The company hiring you will know more about you than your friends and family do.

And for a real dystopian plot twist: it’s an android interviewing you for a mundane job that androids consider too menial to do! Even without this twist, I wonder what the job market will look like in 20 years? What role will humans play in the overall work force? What jobs are uniquely human, and what jobs can a brilliant if not super intelligent AI do?

I’m not sure how much the job market will truly change in just 20 years, but at the rate of advancement that I’m seeing in robotics and artificial intelligence, I really think a major disruption in what we call work is coming. The disruption will be uneven at first, taking more jobs in different sectors than in others, but sooner than we would want to envision, the disruption is coming in almost every sector. What will that really mean for humans and the things we define as work?

Bad back

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At the end of Grade 9 I was 4’11” and at the end of Grade 10 I was 5’6.5” tall. I grew 7.5” in 1 year, and during that growth spurt my back torqued a bit giving me mild scoliosis. That year, and for a bit longer, my heals hurt. They couldn’t handle the extra weight I put on. A couple years after that, I started having issues with my back.

But I was young and full of energy. I dealt with back pain by just putting up with it… until it crashed on me, then I was basically in survival mode, incapacitated. I’d sleep on the floor with my feet up on a pillow or coffee table, and I’d take a combination of pain killers and alcohol to get me through 2-4 days of agony before I could get myself back to ‘normal’… with that normal being consistent but manageable back pain.

When I met my wife, at 28 years old, I was at a point where I’d been coping with a high level of daily pain for almost 9 months. It was debilitating. My wife, who was just my girlfriend at the time kept recommending her physio, and I didn’t really want to try someone else, I was getting massages and seeing a chiropractor, and thought I was doing enough.

Then one day I was feeling the pain more than usual. I used to ride my bicycle to work, but my back was bad enough that I took the bus. It was an unusual day where I had to sit in an all day meeting and my back couldn’t handle sitting all day.

I was in agony by the time I got on the bus headed home, and after I got on the crowded bus an elderly lady got up from her seat and said something like, ‘I think you need this more than me’. I declined, thanking her and saying that the last thing I needed to do was sit. This exchange hit me hard… an old lady got up to offer me a seat. How bad must I look for this to have happened. That day I asked my wife for the number to her physio.

That decision changed my life considerably. The physio had me doing these tiny movements to push my hips over to the left and after 2 sessions with him, I woke up one morning and couldn’t figure out what was wrong with me. I took a shower and I couldn’t shake this bizarre feeling. After the shower, I was shaving and it suddenly hit me… I wasn’t in pain.

In the 3 decades, since that experience, I’ve never had my back be as bad as that, but I’ve had some tough episodes. One involved a herniated disc in my neck that sent nerve pain down my left arm. Scroll back a few years on this blog and you will definitely hear me talking about it because it was really all I could think of for a few months.

And now again, for the past few months, I’ve been dealing with sciatic pain down my right leg. My new diagnosis: piriformis syndrome. Basically my butt muscle is squeezing my L5 sciatic nerve. I’m now waiting for an appointment with an anesthesiologist, who will likely give me a shot to ‘cool down’ the issue so that my physio work can actually teach me to keep that area more relaxed. But in the meantime, the pain is triggered, not by sitting, but rather by standing. Even a three minute shower is long enough to initiate the pain.

I’ve joked for years that my mind feels 20 years younger than my actual age, and my back feels 20 years older. A funny remark when I’m in my 30’s, which feels a bit scarier at 58. But if my back has taught me one thing over the past few decades it’s that if I don’t care for it well it will humble and age me.

And so, here I am in recovery mode again, in a slow but steady and dedicated way. I’m trying to stay positive, knowing that discipline and care will help me overcome my back challenges. No appointment scheduled yet with the anesthesiologist, I’m still waiting for the call… in a seated position as often as possible.

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Update: It is NOT piriformis syndrome. My massage therapist and physio both agree that this is not the issue. I’ve had zero referral pain when my massage therapist digs into this muscle. It is DEFINITELY my L5 sciatic nerve, it’s probably coming from my spine/disc (which shows arthritis in the x-ray)… but the diagnosis above is not correct. 

Intentionally disconnected

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Is it just me that has been intentionally disconnecting from the news and even social media around the war in the Middle East?

I truly understand my privilege in saying this, since I don’t have loved ones in jeopardy. And understand the desire of some people to know what’s going on because there are global ramifications. Yet I find myself unable to concern myself with the political posturing, the doublespeak, the justifications, and the outrage. I feel like I don’t have the mental capacity to either partially engage and feel insignificantly informed or to delve in and be fully informed… and ultimately powerless to do more than fill my brain with visions of destruction and violence.

Even though I usually choose to ignore the negativity of news, I still tend to keep myself updated on global issues and major news stories, but I’m struggling to engage right now. I find it too disheartening.

It makes me question the humanity of humans. That as a species we can construct such diametrically opposed ideologies; that we can live in societies that value greed over the welfare of the community; that we can choose leaders who do not care for the people that elected them into ‘service’… these are things I don’t understand. Or rather, things I don’t want to believe that humans could value more than peace, love, and kindness.

And so for now I lack the capacity to engage. It seems like a futile activity that will anger and upset me, with no gain. It is rare for me to actively choose to be uninformed, but right now is one of those times.