How different things are now than they were just 3 months ago!
You would think by now I would have figured out some good routines but I really haven’t. I feel caught up at work, then not two days later I feel swamped. I have a morning ritual I follow, then suddenly my whole routine feels up-side-down. I eat well and take care of myself, then I binge on junk and miss a workout.
I work best when I am a creature of habit, when I follow set routines and focus on the task at hand. But right now I can’t find a rhythm. I set things up and follow the plan for 2-3 days then I’m doing something completely different. My systems are temporary. My plans are not realized. I set a goal, then I do tons of things related to that goal, but somehow avoid the work that needs to be done to meet that goal.
It’s not like I’m falling apart. It isn’t that I’m overwhelmed and struggling. On the contrary, things are going well right now in many ways… it’s just that my routines are out of sync. My habits are an effort. Is it just me, or are others feeling like they just can’t get into a good groove?
Definitely not just you David. As I touched upon in my newsletter:
Emily Baron Cadloff explains that the reason for our ‘fog’ is that our brains are working so hard in coping with the current crisis.
Alternatively, James Hamblin questions whether everyone is depressed?
I remember when the idea of social isolation was mooted, people were listing all the things they could do with the extra time and space. The reality has been something vartly different. Instead it is a time to be grateful for health and safety.
Thanks for sharing Aaron,
I do feel a bit of cognitive overload, it just usually comes with other feelings besides melancholy. I thought writing this would be a cathartic new reset, but I find I’m still off kilter. One thing I can do to help myself is to reduce the guilt of not getting things on my ‘if only I had more time’ To Do list done… it seems I have good reasons, as do many people around the world, to leave these things undone as we mentally cope with a pandemic.