My hearing isn’t great. Compounding this is the fact that I have tinnitus. It used to be in one ear, now both. It used to be something I could ignore, now it’s ever-present.

I miss silence. I’ve probably mentioned that here a dozen times before, but I really miss it. I want to not just remember what silence was like but actually experience it again.

After months of waiting, this afternoon I have an appointment with an ear specialist. My expectations are low while my hopes are high, that I’ll get some relief… or at least advice to try different strategies to reduce the constant tones my ears feed my brain.

I’m not expecting silence, but I’m hoping that one day soon I’ll get some moments that are close to quiet, even if it’s temporary. I’ll take what I can get!